Friday, December 25, 2009

Faith

As all the details of the trip have come together and the Lord has provided abundantly I still sit here and go "what about when I get back Lord." Where will I live and where will I work. I feel I want to finish school up and trying to afford an apartment and paying for school I always seem to come up short on that. So why do I not have the faith to know that the Lord will provide what I need when I return. How do I so quickly forget how the Lord takes care of me and provides what I need. Any thoughts on this?

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

23 Days and the rest of my life

In 23 days I leave for South Africa and take one more step forward in my life. The feeling of leaving America and living in a foreign country for the next 5 months has not really set in. I know I will have difficulties and struggles, but it does not seem real. How can one prepare for a trip like this? I read Gods Word and pray and keep moving forward in my walk, but I do not feel a person can truly be ready for what is about to happen.
This journey reminds me of Jesus and Peter in Matthew 14:28-33. Jesus is walking on the water and Peter calls out to the Jesus and says if its you Lord command me to come. In the end of this story Peter has little faith that Jesus has the power for him to walk on water. I want my journey to be different, I have heard the Lord call me to get out of the boat and trust him. I want to have the faith to know he will walk through the fire with me and carry me. If I try doing this in my power I will fail in every way, and I pray for the faith to keep walking on the water through the power of Jesus.

I have so many thoughts about who will I be when I return home? Will I be the same person? Will I have changed? I am scared and excited to see who I become and what this trip will do to shape me and my out look in life. When I am long gone from this place will my life show that I served the Most High God? Will His light shine through me? I pray it does.

Be in prayer for me and the team I will be serving with.

Isaiah 6:8 "And I heard the voice of the Lord saying, 'Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?' Then I said, 'Here am I! Send me.'"