Over the past month I have been trying to run regularly, and with the weather it has been difficult. It seems to me when you have several weeks of good weather it is easy to get in a routine, but as soon as the weather gets rainy for a week its easily ruined. As I was thinking about this I thought back to an old journal entry I had. I asked the question "where am I running to." I know my desire is to run to the Lord, but how am I doing this? At times I hardly feel like reading my bible and I struggle with understanding it. I want to serve my Lord and be a faithful servant. My spiritual desire does not always line up with what I do. Just like running I get into a good routine and I see God move in mighty ways and watch him use me and others in ways only He can do. Then there is the rainy times were all I can do is pray for the sun to come out. I feel like God is far away and unattainable. I know in the rainy days of life God uses them to teach us and I wanna learn.
As I sit here listening to music a song by Rush of Fools came on and its called "Can't Get Away." The song talks about we can't get away because we keep running into God. WOW God intersects in our life's whether we want to or not. As a young minister I have many difficulties and struggles. I wanna do what is right and honoring to God and at times I do not have the answers. Who will listen and help? Who will guide? How will I know what is right? I feel like I am running at full speed and the goal is so far away I cannot tell if I am running in the right direction. Serving the Lord seemed so much easier 5 years ago when He save my hell bound soul. Life was slower and the struggles seemed smaller. Lord give me strength and courage to run the race with endurance.
The Last Minute Tourist
9 years ago
Lessons are repeated until learned and then you move to the next level where the lessons are more difficult.
ReplyDeleteI've learned that's so true in my own life. Things were easier back in the day. Walking down the wrong path is like being a river. It just sort of flows and takes the path of least resistance. Choosing to follow the Lord is about as far from the path of least resistance as you can get!
Back in High School I would have NEVER pictured myself where I am now. The best part about that, is that now... I am happier, healthier, and have more true love in my life.
By the way, I'm very glad to see that you have such a strong desire to serve the Lord. Oh and feel free to blog stalk me too! -VAL